"There's this life waiting for me, out there. I know it. I've got a book deal. I go home to a partner who love some and doesn't mind taking care of me when I'm sick. My social calendar is brimming, replete. My body feels like mine again; like it did before. That life is just sitting there, at the top of a hill, waiting to be claimed. And I just haven't found a path to the summit yet."

GENRE: Romance; OwnVoice story about Cancer
RATING: 5/5
FORMAT:eBook & physical ARC
Tropes: Slowburn, Breast Cancer Survivor in her 20s, Friends to lovers, Maid of Honour x Best Man, One Tent, Manic pixie dream boy

Review:

What a beautiful book. This is a book that talks about how it feels to get sick, written by an OwnVoice author who went through the same journey as the FMC (Ruby) and you can tell that it's something written based on experience.

Ruby has to grapple with the fact that her life changed overnight while she was sick and deals with the fact that her life, body and everything in between feels like it's no longer hers. I related to so many things in this book because getting an illness, whether it's chronic illness, cancer...etc. comes with a lot of similarities and differences.

It's the way people treat you differently and the way you feel your previous life no longer fits you anymore. Ruby goes through this journey of realising that her friends were never truly there for her and that she isn't the same person anymore.

Oh and Eitan? What a lovely relationship and the way it comes to be? He makes Ruby realise she is worth so much more than she thinks and they help each other in smaller ways. I'd have loved to read his POV but this was a story focused on Ruby's journey, her healing and her life after cancer.

We truly do need more OwnVoice stories in terms of Cancer, disabilities, mental health and everything under this umbrella because for those of us who have ever gone through anything similar, we can tell when its written based on experience and Rebecca truly wrote her heart and emotions in AtDBT. You can see it in the dark humour, in the trying not to give up but what's the point of it all, in the "I have hope but I can't have hope the way you expect me to", in the hospital visits and follow-ups you always have to do, in the way you want to be loved & accepted but always feeling like you're a burden and in so many more ways. It's in the fact that everyone deserves their happy stories, no matter the battles they've gone through in this life.

And finally, here's another quote from this book that I loved:

"It's life, isn't it? We're born and we die, and the time in between is what it is."

I was provided a free advance reader copy and I’m sharing my honest thoughts.